kisses_couture

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 15:46:52 GMT

Dear daddy in heaven.
Help us all to do well.

Amen.

Love,
Venessa

rant

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 03:27:03 GMT

sigh, it kinda pains me to see everyone in such a period where everyone's writing hate notes around.
firstly, the whole judgmental post was out there, to anyone that judge my relationship and no one in particular.
second of all, yeah the whole world bitches and gossip about everyone and everything.Even me. I wish i could live in
self denial ,for a moment and tell myself, that once i graduate and leave this school all of this would be over.
But reality check. this is the world. It's never kind. When we go out, we are definitely bound to meet the same
kind of people and start the same old shit all over again. Tell me you never experienced such crap during primary school?
Arguments or betrayals? Because that's life. We were put here, never to live life easy. What we're experiencing now
is just a mere 20% of what we will experience full blown , out there in that cold cruel society. Yeah, it sucks.
But it's something i know i cannot run away from. So why can't everyone just during his period, at least act okay.
give each other some peace? This is our most crucial moment, we should all be working together to do well.
We might, cut off each other after graduation or prom. Fine, feel free to do so. But you know, i know. we will all eventually
be in the same situation again. Just probably with different people. It's not so much about the problem. It's how
you make the best out of it, how you think. Whether you choose to make yourself feel like crap or think positively.
Or try to improve the scenario for you and the people around you. The worst enemy is Ourselves. It's only up to
us, to battle that demon inside of us. Because no one can, except ourselves. Anyways, thats all ive got to say.
Judge me, bitch whatever. Im over it. One more month only, can't you people just bear with it?

exoh,
Ven

Mess with me, i mess with you! <3

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 16:23:14 GMT

Haha I have concluded that im surrounded by emotionally disturbed and retardedly weird by default people!! xD
Except baby & some others of coursee. hehe. <3
I can't wait for baby to be here. In like 4 days time. Haha, went mugging with deb today. Im not gona boast about
how productive today's study session was. But i'd have to say it's been one of the most serious sessions
i've had. See baby, proud of me not? haha. And, went home and had Chinese Tuition. My brain juices
are almost brain dried. Hahaha wth seriously. Cant wait to continue mugging again tomorrow.~ omg yeh,
that sounded so fake. me being enthu about mugging? lolololol :/

Something i've learnt frm church,
To people who judge others. You have no rights to judge in the first place. Whatever the situation.
Because, we are brought to earth only to be judged by God our father when we return to him.
No one is to judge anyone else other than our God.
No one has the Rights to even judge anyone else. Even ourselves.
Because only he , who knows and sees us through and through deep beyond what we know of ourself, knows how to judge us fairly and justly.

I leave you all to think about that, and people who judge me of spending too much time with my boy. erm, who are you again?
You dont even know , whats going on. esp if you guys are not my close friends. dont judge people please. I wont allow myself
or my relationship to be judged by anyone, except daddy in heaven. Because only he knows whats going on, and because only
he sees inside of me through n through. <3 so think twice before u start judging people, cos in the end when you go to god..
You'll also ultimately be judged only by him. and he see YOU through and through.

Love,
Venessa

random reminiscence

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 14:04:24 GMT

Boohoo. Im missing you quite terribly already.
Babyyyy hurry come back, and im soooo thankful you're gonna be by my side throughout the O level period!
After O levels, let's go on a zillion holidays! Back to Batam, to Hong kong/ Bangkok with my family!
And maybe even to Europe with usss. omg i cantttt waittt! I can soooo get used to going on Holidays
with you! <3 Hurry come bacccccck. That bottle Of Baileys we bought is waitingggg for youuuu!
I dont want to drink it alone ok. :( We're half done with the bottle. hehe what an acomplishment.
Two people drinking a one litre bottle! So get back here and finish the remaining half with me! <3
THen we can go and buy more!!!. hurhurhur.

Oh, i realise our parents have this whole exchanging of gifts with each other going on man, and we're like
their delivery personnel LOL. Hope your parents like the Korean Ginseng my rents got for themmm! <3
And how did your rents know, my daddy lovesss coffee :p hahaha.

i love you.
glad you got home safe and sound.

Love,
Abby

My birthday boy.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 10:09:26 GMT

Hurhur, baby's gone back to kayelle. But he's coming back next Saturday to guide me for my O levels! Yipeeeee. Yay for boyfriends who can teach their girlfriends. lololol. I love you so much baby :) Did you know how hard it was to keep that Big Surprise from you?? Everytime, i'd be
like soooooo tempted to just let the cat out of the bag!! Anyways, i hope you loved your surprise. And hope, that short 2 day 1night getaway
for your birthday gave you many fun filled and lovely memories as much as it gave me! <3

Missing you.

on board the Ferry to Batammmm <3

Our superrr cosy & Comfortable crib for the trip @ Holiday INN <3

Birthday Boy making his 3 wishes &blowing the candles.

After swimminggggggg :))

Did i say i LOVE room service???

Byebye batam! We'll be back again, end of the yearrr :))

Okay, Batam trip is overrrr. I guess fun's over and it's time to kick some serious O levels BUTTTTT!
Mugginggg with debbbbbbbbb the entire of next week!
Im soooooo looking forward to my head burried in books and texts and tuitions allll week.
IM TRYNA PYSCO MYSELF.

exoh,
Venessa

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 13:02:26 GMT

The past few days with you feels like pure bliss.
I love waking up to you every morning
And receiving good night kisses from you every night.
I've been feeling productive, we've been going
to the library everyday to study. And boy, am i glad
that you're there to guide me on so many sums
i am not sure of, and is there to motivate me on.
But, im not studying to my maximum potential.
We need to study harder! And do our best together.
But anyhows, im sure we will. In the meantime.
Happy 21st Birthday Baby!
I Love You.

damned if i do ya, damned if i dont

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 16:55:07 GMT

Wooooots. Found a new band that i loveeeeee <3
Deborah know's who they are. omgggggod. they are awesome. Thankks baby for introducing, that alternative station to mee.
I'm not saying who they are out la. :B Those, that know. good for you then. YOU GOT AWESOME TASTE IN MUSICCC :D
Baby's coming tomorrow..

*hops & dances in circles*
Im gonna go to bed now. super tired... <3

Love,
Venessa

Just for you

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 10:08:59 GMT

I'll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day through.

In that small cafe;
The park across the way;
The children's carousel;
The chestnut trees;
The wishin' well.

I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day;
In every thing that's light and gay.
I'll always think of you that way.

I'll find you
In the morning sun
And when the night is new.
I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you.

& yes, i'll always think of you that way baby . iloveyou.

exoh,
Venessa

Deb @ Hard Rock Cafe!

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 15:08:12 GMT

HAHA HI DEB! HOPE YOU ENJOYED URSELF.
so proud of you man :p

Exoh,
Abby

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 04:26:21 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBORAH <3
Something for you on my main (cuddlefishh) blog btw :)

exoh,
Ven

ex-oh

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 13:38:40 GMT

Im sleepy as helll. Medicines intoxicating my body. Sucks to be sick. really :(
I would have taken tomorrow off,to sleep the entire day through, but naaaaah. It's patrons day tomorrow. <3
5 more days with the girls. Gosh, seriously? time passes too quickly. sometimes i wished that i would just stop :(
It passes, soooo quickly. It's scary :( soon we'll be walking our own separate ways and maybe even forget
each other :(

i mean, that's how it is la. You meet people. But at different stage of life, some people are just by passes.
they walk in and then walk out. but those few years,they were the people that formed who you are now.
without them = no me now. seriously. sigh.

I hope i'll gett better tomorrow.
and hope what im worrying about, comes :( Yayy. pray for me please. need plenty of prayers.

Love,
Venessa

Hurricane Streets

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:18:23 GMT

Took the countdown stuffies down because there was something wrong with it. Anyways, 12 more days till i see baby again. some stuff got me worried again. but i know i 'll be fine , leaving it into the hands of daddy in heaven. <3

I guess i'll still be blogging here sometimes after all. hees, me & baby's blog. is still pretty public after all :) i miss him alotalotttttttt. :(
sigh, wish he was here. i could have so gotten used to him being here with me all the time. haha. And waking up
to his huggs everymorning. Heehee, baby does this annoying noisy sound with his throat when he sleeps!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah
I couldnt sleep and slept only at 3 cos of that! haha, i even tried waking him up by poking him n shaking him la!
but he didn't wake up!!!! hahah. which is why i got baby to sleep on my sisters bed :p aww. but i still love you so much baby!
i'll get used to it verrrry fasttttttt. haha, i wouldnt want u sleeping on netta's bed away from me already!
You can sleep on my bed with me, the next trip okay :D i wont chase u off, unless u promise to not do that noisy noise
with your throat already! BAD HABIT!!! x) and it'll hurt your throat!!! snoring is ok, but the throat thing ah, very screechy xD

<3
wheeeeee. schooool suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkks. lessons have been VERY borring. kill me please.
idont want to go to school. motivation talk today was funny n alot of common sense la. seriously.
but can't help laughing at the fact that the coach, ernest looks ALOT like Jarrold. hahaha!
Counting down to :

Baby's arrival on the 5th.
Patrons Day this Friday.
END OF O LEVELS!!!!!!

Love,
Venessa

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 14:51:55 GMT

Yayyy. check out me & cheez's new bloggie <3

www.cuddlefishh.blogspot.com

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 04:44:59 GMT

Happy 1Year Anniversary Baby,
I love you. <3
more details on my black-stilettos.BS blog. <3

i dont want to write titles

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 11:41:27 GMT

Couldn't help thinking and smiling to myself about how anxious me & doreen were, to get out of school. She, was excited to go off to her Malaysia trip ( enjoy yourself there girl! ). whereas i, was excited to see my baby again after 6whole long hours of not seeing him, i was missing him quite terribly indeed.But, just feeling very comforted and thankful at the fact that he's here with me now. Well. snoring away. lol. we took a quickie afternoon nap.But he's still snoring away.. lol such a sleepyhead. hehe, aparrently when he sleeps, he has spasms! Lol!! so cute. <3

School's been seriously boring, lessons conducted these few days seem to be very very redundant. sigh, it's doing test papers, going through test papers, doing practicals. It's been pretty routine-ish. and gets very very boring. But ah well, look! We're done with the first out of our 3weeks of school already. Two weeks,or rather 9 more days with the girls :( Patrons day next weekkk. I've never really attended patrons day before. Can't wait. I think i'll cry. lol.

Lol, baby stretched, i thought he's up already. But oh am i so wrong. haha. that sleepyhead. he's snoring again =/
shall pen off here. have an enjoyable long weekend people. STUDY! <3

Love,
Venessa

copyrighted!

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 15:27:11 GMT

Yayyyyye. Baby's here \O/ Yeah i got punk'd!!
I seriously cannot stand some people. copy copy copy. copy paste. or perhaps just change a few things. ugh!!!!
Seriously, this is why so many people dont post things or talk about all their stuff anymore. arghhhhhh.
cannot take it la. :(

on a lighter note, baby surprised me. i felt bad that i got him on a wild goose chase today. he's playing with pebbles now. awwww.
and sending me & picking me from school tomorroww :) we're gonna start becoming nerds and start mugging at QT lib tomorrow onwards.
:)

<3

Love,
Venessa

paging for venessa abigail ho

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 13:50:11 GMT

Venessa Abigail Ho you just got punk'd :D

Reached Novena at 3ish. I'm in the library waiting for JS to be done with his paper so I can finally go home. Contemplating to surprise you in town so I train-ed to City Hall (tot ur still at penin plaza),called you there and realised you were at Taka checking out the mooncake fest, train-ed BACK there. Oh, I'm in the canteen studying that's why it's so noisy, Sy Hao calling me, I'll call you back. Reached Taka and found the fest but not you :( Called again, asking what ur up to - eating Korean food. Ok the only Korean outlet in Taka is.. Seoul garden wich apparently is not, some Crystal jade Ginseng Chicken (yah i oso tot it was too chinese to be Nam Hyun Joon) so anyways apparently u were at the food court having korean, which I passed by after failing to find any kimchi in there. Almost giving up, went back to Orchard MRT thinking u might take that way home, hoping and praying you would spot me from the entrance but err.. (this kinda thing only happen in movies.seriously) yeah quite the sucker for that la but did that anyway. Last call, hopefully not blowing the secret that I'm already here, I'm at carrefour with JS having meal that's why so noisy.yeah.we just got here. :D (make it sound believable!), - you're at Taka McD's (errrrrrrr how you hang around Taka so long), so rushed there from ion/orchard mrt where I made that call then. Was another step behind you, late again - Ronald McDonald and the colonel both said they didn't see you.. really last resort alr.. - went to Taka's info counter and paged.. I swear she doesn't know how to pronounce abigail.

"Good evening shoppers, may I have your attention please, Ms. Venessa AH-BEE-GALEE Ho please report to the information counter."

Baby says it's quite embarassing to have your name paged over the PA, I think it's not la, but if she page like that.. who would want their names announced wei. free gift u can keep it, spare me the embarassment plsthxkbabai.

(Baby was wit sop out to get Sg idol tix already, at mediacorp. and I didn't know till I train-ed back to her place - yes this means I had already given up. hahah but still successful punk'd!)

If you ever wondered what a wild goose chase really is like, please. Try to surprise someone without blowing your cover.

I hope you liked it. Only fair that I put effort into this mini-gift la. For our 21st (:

I love you (:(:(:(:(:(:(:

yay!

Love,
Cheez

Your cuddlefish.

Sugar,how you get so fly <3

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 09:51:21 GMT

On this day of your life, Veneez, we believe God wants you to know ...
... that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.
True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share.
When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open.
There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out.
If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion,
you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

Im back home, tired and exhausted. Im dwelling in my own self misery, Im panicking about my O levels but im not doing anything about it.
The whole CJC talk had somehow given me a little boost and i feel somewhat motivated to do the best i can, even at the last min.
I scored horribly for my prelims, but well enough to enter Taylors at kayelle. Well, today i set my goals. And i'm gonna aim to score
better, than my cousin did. He scored 17, and i know i have the ability to definitely do better if i study hard enough and with the favour
and wisdom of daddy in heave. I believe, everyone have that capability to do well too. Catherine tang can score better than us.
Yeah, seriously? But it's true.This goes to show that we've really been slacking our asses off too much. anyways, im sure we can do
this and get through this together. It's almost overrr. :) tho, it sucks that time seems to pass very slowly when you're suffering. gah.

All the best people. :)

Love,
Venessa

shut your eyes, & feel the chemical collide<3

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 16:12:12 GMT

Wheeee, spent the evening doing my chinese homework. Yeah! i know. seriously. shocking much? haha. I told myself, im not allowed on the computer until im done with my chinese work, which is why im only on at around 10ish. hehe. So proud of myself. chinese okay!!! Seriously,
im starting to regret my choice of re-taking my O level chinese. If i knew it was that Lee Ting Ting teaching, i wouldn't have.! Anyways, i just hafta keep telling myself that im left with 13 more days, then no more chinesee. IM starting chinese tuition again. haha.

sigh, im tired. crashed when i got home, after shower. felt so good. I even dreamt. haha, showed how good my sleep was, and how tired i actually was. and i still am actually. i can't wait for the weekends to come, and can't wait till i see my baby boyyy. love you so much.

doreen last long with him okay <3

Im not in the mood to blog about anything, just know that im seriously exhausted. almost giving up actually.

Love,
Venessa

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 13:48:47 GMT

5MM,
From tomorrow, we'll officially have 2weeks and 6 days left with each other.
Which makes it exactly 15 days together, minus weekends and the upcoming Hari Raya Holiday as a class before, our secondary
life officially ends. Please treasure these 15 days together okay?? No bitching, arguing whatever crap. <3

love,
Venessa

bitter heart

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 08:21:26 GMT

Baby's confirmed that he's coming on Friday. so late :( ah well, at least i got something to look forward to and it's only 4 days away. He's been dropping me clues and hints along the way, through emails ,etc about his one year anni present for me. Omg, the suspense is driving me madddd. haha. I am dying to find out what it is!!! Baby's been busy mugging, hardly got time for me. Mugging for us, he always say. sigh.
I should try to understand right. lol, but i miss him alot. ah well. :( Heez, mom took us to have buffet at Holiday Inn hotel today. Was not impressed with the buffet. It actually seems like those kind of buffets that you get for free, everytime you stay over at a hotel. Not worth the money at all, and the food was just average.

Didn't help that i was craving for good chinese food. Crystal Jade next weeeeeek anyone????
Hehe, oh. Am going for picnic with shar & ryan, and will be heading for desert & ice cream buffet with baby & sisss next weeek!! Yummms.
I can't wait. hahaha. Oh, and most likely Crystal Jade with babyyy. Since i always have cravings for crystal jade. hehe. okie, i should stop talking about food. Haha! School tomorrrow. Can't wait to see my loveliessss <3

Love,
Venessa

carousel

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 16:00:45 GMT

Heeelllooo. omgosh, it's saturday already. Can you like believe it? Just 8 days ago, i was rejoicing because it was the start of our one week term 3 holiday break. 8 days passed by so quickly?? why does It only feel like yesterday :S Anyways, baby's being a muggerhead and is mugging for his exams. While i on the other hand, spent less than 10 hours the past 8 days on my studies. I spent the remaining hours, going out, watching movies, sleeping, eating. omg. Im starting to sound like the ultimate bum. sigh, i seriously need motivation. Or at least someone to study with me??? Because i know i wont study if im alone :( which is pretty sad. haha.

Wonder why i felt the urgency and need to study more for my 'N' levels compared to my 'O's. I thought about it and i guess it was because i wanted to go for prom THAT BADLY. I kept telling myself. Venessa, if you fail your 'N' levels, you won't be able to attend prom next year and have a graduation ceremony to attend or even wear that white dress to have you own personal space on the school's year book. Lol, yeah! retarded. But hey, at least that got me motivated. The whole. your life will be doomed if you dont study 'motivation' got old and doesnt work on me anymore.

I spent the whole of today re-watching 8 episodes of GossipGirl. lolol, I still however, feel that the book owns the movie. hees . I'm still pretty not happy that baby hasn't really confirmed the date of which he is coming down..like leave me hanging and duno which date to look forward to. bleh. Anywaysss, i can't wait to see baby.

And i can't wait for our 1 year anniversary to come,check my main blog that day yea! Oh! &also, can't wait for that picnic with shar & Ryan! .somehow, im glad those 8 days passed along so quickly. But then, time always passes very quickly whenever im with baby. :( soon, i'll be sending him off home. sigh.

IM TIRED. gdnight people.

love,
Nessa

You're so contagious

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 06:40:07 GMT

Baby's currently in the exam hall , gonna start on his fluid mechanics paper. All the best baby,do your best okay! Prayed for you already. huggs. iloveyou. Awesome news is that baby would be coming next wednesdayy instead of next friday!! :D cant wait cant wait. love baby so much. We were playing dragonica last night (LOL) don't ask. It's this realllly ahdorahble game. hHa but NO. im not gonna get addicted. Nothing beats maple :p

Oh, i just got back from my haircut and i wanted to like, arrange my fringe properly! Remember, there wasn't fringe At all? It was just like 2 side partings, just parted in opposite sides ,lawl. But the only way to fix my fringe was to cut bangs. Which i obviously won't cos, i'd look horrid in bangs. So, he suggested rebonding my fringe only (LOLwtfish) then, once it's in the proper fringe alignment, he'll snip my fringe into long bangs, bangs below my eyes la lol. Then i can side sweep my fringe to make it a proper side bang! Yayyyyeee. It was so weird , only getting my fringe rebonded. haha anws, heres how i look!! haha, i kinda look the same la, but the big difference is in my fringe alignment which obviously cannot be seen in pictures. And my fringe looks thicker too! Actually my fringe is too short to be tucked bhind my ear >< so im praying that my hair grows long faster. Oh, my hair's shorter too. Got him to snip off the ends, snip off all the split ends etc etc. aiyah. anws, pictures will do the talking la. LOL

Sigh, O levels is more of a bad than good, it causes alot of anxiety ,fear and problems not only for the people taking the exams but for the people around them that care. =/ people commiting sucide cos of Os.seriously, why must the world make it such that, it is impossible to live without that one piece of paper ,that one will waste many hours for, will kill themselves for, will spend millions of dollars for? what is this world coming to? It was never supposed to be like this, when daddy in heaven created earth. Everything
was supposed to be just so simple..rah.

p.s/
dont bother the ugly makeupless face. the main focus is supposed to be on the hair anyway . lol.
<3

love,
Venessa

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 11:51:49 GMT

Sigh, the whole exam crap is really starting to affect me, the stress is horribly intense and it's getting to me very fast.
I've been breaking down alot and my emotions have been whacked and wrecked..been arguing with baby , because
i would just snap at him for the tiniest issue like, him forgetting to give me a wake up call..sigh. There's just a voice in
my head telling me '' if he can't even remember his promise to give you a wake up call, it shows how important you
are to him.'' and '' you never fail to forget to wake him up, where ever you are, and he can't even do that. '' wtf the voice...
and i just snap at baby and we will end up arguing..sigh,im going mad.

if this keeps up.....
i'll be the next one to jump off the building in my area, and you guys would be preparing to attend a funeral.
Yeah im not kidding at all.

you're the sugar in my high

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 05:15:41 GMT

Was supposed to head to school today to get my History results, but as expected , flopped it anyways. Woke up with a splitting headache and a pair of super goldfish-puffy-like eyes from all the cryings over the phone, on my pillow. Sigh, glad its all sorted out anyways. Couldn't take it and took fluoxetine this morning. If not i think i wouldn't be able to handle it and might just break down again.

Anyways, on a good note. I collected my BLG babiesss album. <3 Seriously. I HATE their new album. there are so many songs, i dislike. Unlike their previous album where i LOVED every single one of their songs. Yeah, Loved! Anyways, do people ever read this blog?? Lolol. kinda not used to having silent readers x) But whatever. !! :)

Im trying to stay happy~
And try to study. ugh..i dont think i have the mood to study today. Im gonna get mom to take me out for a haircut, long side bangs perhaps??
I need to sort out my parting for my fringe. Cos it's like randomly messily parted. =/

With me being an exception today, everyone study hard okay? :)

update.//
Uh okay. Someone in the next block Jumped down and commited suicide. And i SAW the body. It's a guy. sigh. The police are covering it up now. Now, i actually pity the family that's staying on the ground floor. It's like, the doods body was Just outside the house,on the grass.Sigh, kinda sad how people just want to end their life like that. They go to hell immediately. Cause, you end a life given by god.. It's such a gloomy day today. only for me i guess. =(

Love,
Venessa